Replacable

It is disheartening to think that after working for eight months at a job you can be "replaced" by other employees in a matter of seconds via phone call. I cannot believe the rudeness with which my boss has gotten rid of me. In this state the boss is not required to give reason for releasing employees and I cannot even receive my paycheck for two weeks. I find my boss unprofessional and quite frustrating. It will be tough to find another job, but I know I can do it. I just have to set my mind to it and have confidence. It is so relieving not to have to worry about my job anymore though... the stress was killing me.

So another chapter is closed. I am not irreplacable, but I am worth more than a phone call. Time to restore my self-confidence. Time to restore my sense of self.

Life is short but also long. I have a lot to fear and worry, but I also have a lot to appreciate.

Do you ever have a hard time with words? I have an incredibly challenging time with conversation. Especially when I think about what I say. I just have no idea what to say. I feel so speechless recently. I feel so aloof. My down emotions probably haven't helped much either. But I am alive. I just have so much I am contemplating.

Life offers so much possibility. Life is ahead of me. Life is now. Tomorrow will be crazy. Tomorrow is the seventeenth to last day of high school. I can't believe how close the end is, but it is approaching and I can't tell if I want to be there.

"Irreplaceable" - Beyonce