What a Mess

Life is such a mess. Entropy they call it. The disorganization of energy. Quite fascinating indeed. My life seems to be filled with entropy. I hope that I can at least bring my life together a bit just to be stable, but inevitably life goes on and will unravel itself. Dealing with the unraveling is the tough part.

I look forward to the summer. Freedom in less than 12 hours. I cannot even believe that school will basically be over for me in 11 hours. I have two more classes afterwards without any finals, so they don't matter. So my school is basically over. And I will be a Senior headed toward my last summer. College apps are approaching. I'm going to BCC. I'm trying to get a job. I'm going to start reorganizing my life. Reducing the effect of entropy. I'm going to explore and enjoy life. I'm going to sleep.

But so much is to be done alone.... and that's the saddest part. No companion. It's so weird considering that last summer I had someone, but I didn't get to enjoy it. But it wasn't mean to be for the two of us. But who am I going to spend my summer with this year? Friends are lovely, but there's always that one person who we all search for. Someone to lean on and to lean on to me. I hope I can enjoy that kind of a summer. But alas, I must focus on my studies and my future. Love will have to wait.... :(

Dramatic song:

"New American Classic" Taking Back Sunday