Fixing People Isn't Possible

You can't change people. It just isn't possible. The only person you can possibly change, the only thing you can really make a difference in is yourself. Even then you can't change everything about yourself. But if you are like me and you like to control things, that gives you comfort, knowing you can change something.

Here at UW I find myself really concerned about the well-being of my friends. I am having a wonderful time here, but it really disappoints me when I see a friend unhappy about their experience here. I try really hard to make this place better for them, and with the understanding that they can only change their experience by changing themselves, I try to change my friends. I tell them what to do. I recommend certain modes of action. I institute plans. I guess I have forgotten to just enjoy the time I spend with friends. All the time I spend with my friends (especially one in particular) is somewhat negative and scolding. I cannot believe how accepting my friends are of my personality and character.

I think I realize that as open-minded as I have become here, I am still so afraid to step outside of my comfort zone. I still need to open up to more people. I still need to do things that are uncomfortable for me. I really need to go outside of the comfortable cushion I have created and try new things. I need to stop being so stubborn and try to follow my own advice. I need to try changing myself if I want to build stronger friendships and truly help my friends. The best job I can do is listen, help when asked, and be there for support. I cannot keep dictating.

I can do this. I really can. I just have to make the attempt to change. Here it goes.

"(Still A) Weirdo" - KT Tunstall