Standardization is Lame.

Another number. The ACT. Same scores exactly as the concurring score for the SAT. So I'm good, but not good enough. I hate these numbers. But they don't really matter. If I need a fantastic number to go to a great college, then I guess that college is not for me. What really matters to me is that I go to a college that opens my mind, challenges my perceptions, inspires me to make a difference, contributes to the globe, and invokes confidence. Many colleges will offer this to me and from my understanding God is probably sending me somewhere I will learn these lessons and grow as a person.

I have hope. I have a dream. And I guess that's all I need. Through all the obstacles and the ups and downs, all I need is something to aim for. And ideal. If I never reach this ideal I can proudly proclaim that I tried.

Yes, I envy those with the better numbers, but if they find themselves in their exclusive club of colleges only because of those numbers then I will be happy to know that I am not part of that. I guess I must put more effort into what I love, not standardized tests or class ranks.

Eilu D'varim

These are the things the fruits (=interest) of which a person enjoys in this world, but the principal remains for him in the world to come:

1. honoring father and mother,
2. deeds of lovingkindness,
3. early arrival at the study-house morning and evening,
4. hospitality to guests,
5. visiting the sick,
6. dowering the bride,
7. accompanying the dead (to burial),
8. devotion in prayer,
9. making peace between a man and his fellow,
10. and the study of Torah is equal to them all.
    (b. Shabbat 127a)

I love this prayer. It really defines what I think Judaism and life is about. While I deeply believe in the teachings of Torah and the power it has, I also strongly believe that the mitzvot (commandments) can go beyond the mere study of the Torah. It is through Torah that I have learned to look inward and question my actions and philosophy. But it is through meaningful actions without reward that provide far more fulfillment to both myself and God.

On this day of atonement, Yom Kippur, I hope to be granted forgiveness for my sins and that I may become a more meaningful person in the year to come, not just in thought and speech, but also in action. Lilah Tov.