Soulmates

I just watched the movie Timer. It's about a world where we can all find our soulmates. Basically everyone has the ability to get a device placed on their wrists and it shows a countdown until you will meet your true love. However the protagonist's timer is blank because her soulmate still has not gotten a timer. It brings up a lot of crazy issues like the 14 year old brother of the protagonist ending up meeting his soulmate so young. Even more awkward is the fact that his soulmate is the Mexican housekeeper's daughter. Or the other problem of marrying people who aren't your true loves.

I don't know if I would want a timer to tell me this. Sure it would be nice, but the convenience kills romance in a way. Although I guess we could all adapt. But whatever it is, I sure hope I meet my true love one day.

I spent all day today doing nothing. But I spent a lot of time thinking. I can't seem to focus on anything but one thing today. I need to just stop worrying about it, but my brain can't be stopped... I'm happy though. I feel so free today. I have been trapped for so long, but slowly I am digging the dirt out of my grave. I feel like I am being reborn each day.

It's just so weird to feel this way. I guess I never knew what this felt like until the past 48 hours. How unusual, isn't it?

I believe in God stronger than I ever have. I believe in this life I have to live. I believe that God has given me such a wonderful life and God has given me what I really want in life. All I have to do is take initiative to turn all that God has given me into a reality that I can truly be happy with.

That's the key to everything in life! When we are comfortable with ourselves, when we fully accept what God has given us and make the most out of that. I have been so afraid of everything for so long, and I know that everything is going to work out. It's going to take time, effort, and a lot of courage to lead the life I want to lead, but I know it will all work out.

"Hope" - Ryan Calhoun