The light at the end of the tunnel?
Today I was a total workaholic, yet I feel incredibly unproductive. I spent over 5 hours studying deeply and the remaining part of my day was eating, a short photography break between the dorm and library, my young democrats meeting, and about twenty minutes watching tennis. I guess I could have cut out some more social time there with that tennis match, or avoided any creative time, but without that I really would be going crazy today. I am incredibly exhausted; today was the second day in a row where I slept through my alarm. But it was okay, despite the exhaustion that haunted me all day. I have many ideals I yearn for like reading my notes after class, applying for jobs, determining my majors, improving my friendships, but all of these expansive goals seem impossible considering how much time I am spending right now just to accomplish the necessary schoolwork.
Last year I was like this except I would spend 7 hours "studying," by surfing the internet for 6 of those hours. Now I am actually using my time to the best of my ability, yet I am still behind. I never feel up to par on any subject and I have more work to do tomorrow because I was unable to complete everything tonight. I have a chemistry midterm, and a Japanese essay, but at least after tomorrow's economics quiz I can pause a bit on that subject.
In essence life has been rather unwavering, which is ideal I guess, almost "perfect," but it's the imperfections and wanderings that give me a thrill in life. I wish I had spoken to the girl on my floor who seems interesting and I saw passing on the ave, or I wish I could just read my book for one hour. Still I managed to explore the East Asian Library today and take some delightful photographs of Mount Rainier. I'll have to display them later.
In the meantime, I've got to get some sleep and here's hoping that I will actually wake up when my alarm blasts in the morning (I can't even say tomorrow because it is already Thursday... sad).
"I Just Wanna Run" - The Downtown Fiction
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