Feeling Insufficient

Hectically I awoke from a restless slumber discovering that the time was indeed five past nine, not the leisurely pace permitted by five till eight. I took a minute to blink, hoping that the time would change in that instant, but instead, it remained solemnly 9:05, the seconds ticking away, time passing by. Only the night before as I wrote a blog entry I discussed my frustrations with time, and it only seemed destiny. I crawled down my ladder and took a deep sigh. Sure I had only twenty-five minutes to complete a shower and fifteen minute walk, but I just went for it. I took an impressively speedy shower (today I actually did something good for the environment!) and walked like a pronghorn sheep toward the distant executive education center. Despite the limited timespan, I actually shifted my mindset and spent those twenty-five minutes positively making the most of my time.

Following forward, my day continued to make the most of time generally. Today was a seemingly unremarkable day, yet I did a lot. My classes were unhelpful, continuing to feel like wastes of time, but outside of class I studied for hours to thoroughly understand the topics I am learning. I challenged my mind, completed the necessary tasks, and even did my laundry in the afternoon.

I achieved a significant amount of homework before the State of the Union. I was inspired by the unity of Congress. I really was proud of the bipartisanship and I hope that this will be the path forward even with my high degree of skepticism. President Obama instilled a sense of patriotism within me, a spirit lost in recent times. After watching the administration fail to follow through with promises to combat climate change, tackle immigration, and allow the economy to falter more, disappointment was building in my heart. I realize now that I must serve this country as I have always intended. We need to deal with these difficult issues of climate change, biodiversity, pollution, diseases, and resources effectively and with a conscientious outlook. If I can study my chemistry, economics, and Japanese to help us achieve these grand goals then I am doing my part.

After the speech I was greeted by a lovely phone call from a friend, another boost to my morale. We had not spoken for many weeks, but it was as if we had seen each other more recently. I was so glad to talk to someone about all the exciting things happening in my life, both positive and negative. Friendships make living more worthwhile and I am infinitely grateful for my wonderful friends, old and new. I cannot wait to meet more intriguing, fascinating, and joyous individuals as I grow older. Each new person, each new conversation is an experience that expands my wisdom of this complex world.

This isn't dubstep, which I have fallen in love with today, but it captures the feeling of exhaustion I feel working this late at night despite managing my time super-efficiently and studying without distraction.

"Cat and Mouse" - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus