Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Incapable

Am I really capable of accomplishing my goals? Can I really do it? I have so much to do I can't even grasp it all. School, college, life; it's all going way over my head. I feel so overwhelmed that I just don't want to do anything at all. I am trying to write it all down, but I don't feel like I have air to breathe. I already feel like I am drowning in my aspirations on the first day of school.

God help me. God steer me. Guide me toward the right path. I know I have to lead my way, but I just cannot find the way or the will. What makes other people do so well? Why can't I get myself to achieve and take action. Why am I spending so much time writing on this blog instead of changing the world?

I need a plan. I can do anything if I set it all up in an organized manner. But there is just so much. I need time to breathe. And in that time I need some goading to make me organized and focused. I need to clean my room and offer myself a fresh start. I need to write it all down and center myself. I can do it, but I need time. I need space. I need renewal.

I just hope I get into college.

"Fireflies" Owl City

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  2. i think goals are hope.
    no matter how hazy or unreachable.
    and we all need hope.
    let's talk soon! i feel like lunch is too much of a big social fest to have some one-on-one time.
    i wish someone would drop out of physics!!

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