Self-Esteem

"Beautiful" Cover (Christina Aguilera)



Okay, so this is not the best singing in the world and this girl is not exactly a super model, but this video inspires me more than the excellent music of the actual Christina Aguilera. This girl doesn't care what people think, I mean most people who've viewed her are haters, and post horrible comments, but she keep uploading videos.

Most people don't have the courage to do such a thing. She has self-esteem somehow if she can have this courage. I feel like our society underestimates the importance helping improve self-esteem. I know that it makes my life much more challenging then necessary and I see so many people doing so many negative things as outlets for their low self-esteem. Why do you think someone would randomly murder 4 police officers in Lakewood? Or why people do drugs? Or give themselves plastic surgery or buy big cars? They are all trying to find outlets or solutions for their low self-esteem. Drugs take us away from the problems we face. Anger and violence release it. Materialism distracts us from the problems. Like in the movie Precious we must face reality and instead of treating it like misery, find hope.

I've questioned my idealism recently. I feel so hopeless and lowly sometimes. But I guess I am thinking too much. We have to go throughout life a little lost and accept it. We sometimes have to ignore all the reality, but if we don't even realize the reality, we can become ignorant and we will fall that much harder.

So find a way to release the frustration. Find a way to be positive. And focus. And realize that the world is not perfect, you are not perfect, and dream.

Believe in yourself just that one inch.

If you doubt it look back on your life.

What can you say about it that is good?

I think of my passion. I think of my friendly attitude. I think of my scholarship.
But recently I haven't been this way.

And ask yourself why you aren't what you want to be or think you are.

For me, it's because I haven't taken care of myself. I haven't allowed myself to focus and I have lost touch of reality. I have become a demon I never wanted to be. And I am changing, but it is a crazy process.

Take a deep breathe. And dive. hmm, I think I want to go swimming now.