Adulthood

Every year we celebrate this anniversary of our birth. Today I became 18.

I entered this year of my life with so much hope and excitement. 17. The last year of freedom from the law. The last year of immaturity. The last year of irresponsibility. The last year of childhood. The last year of innocence.

Now I am official. Now I have registered to vote. Now I must sign up for the selective service. Now I must be a fully-fledged citizen. Now I must show my ability to live the right path.

Yet I am still so lost. I am so confused. I am so overwhelmed. I am so beyond crazy messed up. What kind of year has this been? It has been a year that I hope to move forward from. I am proud of my mistakes and mishaps. I am proud of all my falls, but it still feels a little shameful.

This is one of those times in life where you have to stop worrying about the past and just shut it away. It is time to move forward. It is time to jump the river. It is time to finish all these loose ends and culminate my year. It is time for me to live, live, live.

Maybe this year will be wonderful. Maybe it will be full of struggle. But I have learned so much in my seventeenth year that I believe that my eighteenth year will be fantastic.

My birthday dinner was delicious Filipino. I think my waiter was a drag queen but it was quite humorous seeing my confused unworldly sister and he was very friendly (especially his sing-along Taylor Swift). I always like to try new things on my birthday, and I think I did so this year.

All I know I can do is smile.

"Here's to the Night" - Eve 6



We chose this as our royalty song for prom night. I really like it.