Panic

I have panicked a lot today and run into some awkward moments. Like this evening when I needed to do my homework I allowed my sister's whining to overwhelm me and I relented to her demands. Now I am up way past the time I wanted to go to bed at and struggling to meet all the obligations I have.

I went to the bookstore and I could barely formulate my sentence in my sleepiness. I was so awkward around my new friends today and I felt so awkward.

I really need to find some balance. Tomorrow I will have to say no to new friends just for one day. I'll have all of next week to revel in these new found friendships. But meanwhile I am just so busy and I need to really balance out my life.

Once you cover the basics, the crises seem so less critical. But right now I am running on low... so low. There is just so much mental, emotional, and physical stress on me right now and I am really overwhelmed. I just need some balance and today I was definitely out of balance.

Peace.

"I Don't Wanna Dance" - Hey Monday