So Much More

"These Two Hands" Hana Pestle



The lyrics of this song present such clear metaphors to the state of my present life. While their are many possible meanings, my interpretation is that I don't want to be trapped in a box or held back by fear. It's not just my hands. I don't want to be slowed down by my ego or mindset. I don't want to be halted by insecurity or laziness. I don't want the physical barriers like sleepiness or the mental roadblocks like apprehension to drag me down.

I also compare it to my life. Hana Pestle has amazing talent with her two hands through her music. Similarly I have had my own talent in the past. However I cannot allow that sole talent to control my life. I need to move forward and be more than just the person who won that competition. I need to be more than just my talent.

All it takes is:
"One breath, one step
is keeping me here
I've nothing left
and nothing to fear

I've come too far now..."

On a completely separate note, the song "Second Chance" by Shinedown also resonated deeply today.



The point of the song, the differences between oneself and his parents is shown so distinctly in the video. It's a provoking thought. The idea that we need to be separated from the things that hold us back to move forward. Sadly for the girl in the video it was her parents. But for me as well I see the need to separate from my parents. I don't need a second chance as much as I need a fresh life. I have lived under the wing of my parents for so long, but I have not had a chance to make the tough choices I need to make to be independent. I need to lead my own path. I need to find that job not because my parents want me to get a job but because I want to get that job. I'm thinking of creating a goal book. A way to remind me of the ultimate goals I yearn for.

But in all of life's craziness and self-introspection I guess we just need to have fun sometimes. I guess I just need to segregate my serious and stressful parts of my life from my free and exciting parts. Life is coming together - finally.