Fall has always been a season of depression for me. Not as bad as winter, but pretty miserable. Until this year. This year, I made a conscious effort to change. I have allowed the weather to wear me down, and while I still would prefer sunshine, I am appreciating the crisp chill of autumn and the splendor of all the colors. I am loving the thunder and lightning. I am thrilled by the winds that rush along my face like cattails along my skin. I guess I am learning to appreciate life and reality for what it is.
Today I actually got two essay drafts completed. And I think I might actually get some homework done and a reasonably amount of sleep. I am very imperfect, but I am learning to deal with my imperfections, and the realities. I am accepting who I am and realizing that conforming to the standards of the world may not necessarily be what is best for me at the time. I have always wanted to go to a place like Columbia or Stanford just because the reputation is wonderful, but after reading several reviews of these universities, I will be perfectly happy spending less money at UW and enjoying my next four years of life learning instead of being caught up in the craziness of those stuck-up schools. I guess what I realized finally is that while I would be a great person in the eyes of others if I went to a school like Columbia, I wouldn't necessarily be having a great life. And I know that I prefer my life to reputation. Of course I would go to one of these fancy schools if money was no object, so I will still try passionately because I really do love these schools for what they are. I just accept the fact that my world will not end if I go to UW.
Reality still has room for dreams. But we can always dream outside of reality.
"Academia" - Sia
Dream.
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