Bravery

I need a little courage. That's all. Tomorrow will be another yucky day. But I will endure. I will do my best at work and if I get fired for trying my best at a 9 dollar an hour job then so be it. If the auction is a miserable failure so be it. If my grades suck on my stats test or my physics midterm so be it. I have to face the onslaught of life. I have to persevere. And not just persevere, but to take it all in stride. I won't just plow through the obstacles, I'll dance, jive, and swim. I'll speak out. I'll stand up for myself. But most importantly I'll have the courage to stand against my internal fears.

Last night I had the most frightful dream. I was sweating all over and freaking out because the moment I entered the auction (dreadfully late for setup) I was met by past ASB members who brought up how badly I was doing compared to previous presidents. And how i was a failure. And then my Kumon boss came up to me to tell me of my failure in addition and somehow my Washington Aerospace Scholar was there too to tell me how poor I was as a leader and how stupid I was.

I know I am smart. I know I can lead. I know I can be great. I've worked hard in life and I know I'm not what these people say. But I also know that I don't handle criticism well. So I guess this is just a wake up call that I need to deal with it calmly instead of sweating it out and accept life. I must believe in myself if I want to ever face life and face my dreams.

"Fearless" - The Bravery