Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Runaway

I've been wondering so much about my future lately.

California is my dream. I have been fighting for that for a long time now. It might not happen next year. It might not become my reality as quickly as I expected. Yet I am happy.

It's easy to run away from problems. It's simple to escape. I have hoped to leave Issaquah for so long because I feel so out-of-place here often. But California won't be my salvation. I can't just leave my city and expect my life to be better. The same goes for friendships. You can't just make new friends and expect better friendships. Life does get better with new faces, new places, and new experiences, but I forget to just live in the moment so often.

I am a dreamer, and this world is challenging. But I know that if I can just enjoy the wilderness around me that I hike through the dream at the top of the mountain will come. At times I will need the perspective and I should aim for the top. But it's okay to fall down. It's okay to get some bruises and scratches. In the end, it will be so much more satisfying to be at the top of the ridge after all the trials of life. For now I will enjoy these green pastures of Washington for all they are.

Happiness comes and often goes. But we thrive with passion. I guess I need a fresh start to revive my passion. Any college can do that, not just Berkeley. I am surprised by the options that abound everywhere. Anything is possible, and the best I can do is to really seek those special joys in every moment.

For example, today I woke up at 9:10. Wow that was late in my world. Okay, so I just lived a little and took a shorter shower. I actually finished a job application. I got the books I need for school.

I think I want to live with less stuff. All this abundance makes me overwhelmed. I am excited for when I can own my own place in a high-rise in San Francisco or New York with just the simple things, no unnecessary gadgets and gizmos. :D

"The Runaway" - Something Corporate

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