Hopelessness seems to pervade. Even though today was a wonderful day with the passage of Judge Sotomayor and no drawing class (the dreadful weather was an exception), I still felt depressed and lethargic. I've decided I am either truly sick physically or mentally. I can change. But I don't know how to sustain the short bursts of energetic action that I have randomly throughout the day. Life presents many insurmountable challenges and usually I am excited to face them. But recently I have just not been enthusiastic to face the obstacles. I feel lazy and disappointing. I really want to accomplish something, but I haven't done enough.
But I have an idea for a solution:
-Thoughtfulness: Through music and meditation I will be encouraged and more focused. I can channel my divisive energies into my goals and dreams, while also sparking innovation through thought.
-Rest: Sleep is paramount to my abilities. I cannot do well unless I get more sleep.
-Plan: If I set up a list of easy to accomplish goals I will slowly, but steadily climb that ladder.
-Friendship: Contact with my friends will help me find the propulsion to keep going when I have difficult climbing that ladder of goals.
-Reward: After my hard work and effort I deserve a reward that will not be too much, but enough to encourage further perseverance.
Of course, it isn't that simple. And no plan will cure my flaws instantly or even quickly. As long as I remember that I don't have to go forward in perfection I can accept this plan and modify it as time goes on. It will be tough. It will be challenging. However I know I have the fire within me to shoot for the stars.
"Hold Tight" Valentyne Krush
I heard it on a Famous Footwear commercial and instantly was entranced.
Friday, August 7, 2009
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so you're finally shooting. :)
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