I started my homework 15 minutes ago, and I am already finished. I could have done it 4 hours ago and enjoyed plenty of sleep. I could have left myself time for scholarships or job applications. I could have written a story. I could have exercised. I could have cleaned my room. I could have put my laundry away.
But no. I dawdled. I sat here for four hours thinking I could get my homework done. I feel pathetic, lazy, and lame. Why am I so unmotivated, so uninspired, so melancholy? There is so much more to life than stupid computer games with literally no meaning other than clicking a button or looking up random places in the world.
I have to stop dreaming and start living. But I never can.
Hopelessness pervades me.
"Me and the Moon" - Something Corporate
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i find it harder to do homework when i have my computer on. maybe it's not you. maybe it's your distractions. try turning off the computer for a while. it's like magic how effective you can become.
ReplyDeletei agree with vanessa.
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