I find it really hard to stop whining sometimes. I want a lot sometimes, while I want so little in some ways. I really need to appreciate all I have. I am in Hawai'i!
WE had monstrous winds today, and the waves at Kailua Beach were outrageous. They tossed and turned my body and barreled me toward the shore. I tumbled like a gymnast and flew like a bird a top each crest. There is such freedom in the waves, but it was so lonely by myself. I wish I could transport my friends here.
My family expects so much out of me and my friends just accept me for who I am. Those waves offered me the physical freedom like the spiritural freedom I discover amongst my friends. We can't stay in the ocean forever, so we also have to find happiness on the land.
But on land we can't tumble like in the ocean. I stood on the wood swing at my cousin's house, and then
KABOOM, SPLAT
I fell right on my neck. Now I am paralyzed was my first thought.
But God granted me some grace. I can move my fingers and toes. I can speak. I can see. It's when you're so close to losing everything that you appreciate all you have.
My agony over Stanford and loneliness and shortness has faded. There is so much more in life to live for.
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