Today is my final day here.
It started with a swap meet at Aloha Stadium in Aiea. Then we got bubble tea at Ala Moana. We ate lunch next to a group of Netball players from Australia and then headed to Waikiki for some beach time. The afternoon concluded with Waiola Shaved Ice and Zippy's for dinner with the big family. Watched a chipmunk movie and ate yogurt near UH.
As I leave this magical paradise, I realize what I need to do. My Aunt from San Diego called today and discussed college with me. We diverged into my political identity and she claimed that I would not be as liberal when I started to actually live in reality. Then she warned me of the dangers of New York and I quickly reminded her that the homeless people have been kicked out. I guess I sounded delighted by that fact, and she immediately criticized my liberalness.
I disagree with her in a way, but she is largely right. I don't follow my beliefs that strongly. I say one thing, but I still live in comfort, unaffected by what I proclaim. I want to live my life with passion. I want to live as myself. I want to be ME.
There is one thing I have learned most definitely here in Hawai'i. You have to find what you love and dive into it. You can't be afraid of the water. You know it is nice once you dip your head underneath, but I still struggle to jump in. I need to take that risk. I need to go into the ocean of my passions. I need to let my heart take over sometimes. I need to live for what I believe in. I need to go it alone.
I've learned a lot of other things here too. Patience. Piety. The virtue of silence. Respect. Faith. Heart. Calm. Balance. Adaptation. Thinking.
It's all about living. Tomorrow will undoubtedly be crazy as I try to finish my homework and fly back losing three hours, but tomorrow I will be alive. And the next day. If not, hopefully I have lived with meaning. Thank you God for giving me this life as it has been so far, and I pray that I still have it for many many years to come.
Sh'ma Yisrael Adonai Eloheinu, Adonai Echad. Baruch Shem K'vod Malchuto Lolam Va'ed.
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