Once

"I'm only going to let you kill my once"

That's what risk taking is about. Going for it. Letting yourself die. Being afraid, but being so much braver afterward. Love. College. Life.

I wish I had true courage. I want to leave this miserable life I feel trapped in. I want to escape my degrading job. I want to be able to breathe! I want to be able to see the world. I want to be able to explore. I want to be able to love. I want to be able to climb mountains. I want to be able to lead a protest. I want to be free of all these chains that bound me to the life I currently lead.

The people who are leaving this beautiful rainy land are the people I look up to the most. I don't know how I will live without them and I feel like I need to go away too since my best friends are following their dreams and leaving.

I am so disappointed in my fearfulness all these years. I have wanted to do so much with my life and live in so many ways that I can never try now that I am becoming a fully fledged adult.

Oh well. I just want to be me. I just want to live my dreams. But what's wrong with staying here and living them?

"Once" - Diana Vickers