God knowsw how much I hate making tough decisions. To tell you the truth I wish most everything could be positively predestined. But it isn't. I have high expectations. I have a will. I have the breath I breathe and a heart that beats. I am so alive right now, yet so afraid of all that lies ahead.
My head aches partly from yesterday's painful incident and from all that has happened. I didn't send in all my aid info to all my colleges except the ones who never accepted me. Columbia postponed my decision and placed me on a waitlist. Nothing cleared my choices. In fact I think it just became that much more complicated. There are so many signals God sends me, but I haven't received a definitive message yet. At least it appears I have a path into Occidental since they invited me to a reception!
My good friend got accepted into Columbia. I feel great. He truly deserves that acceptance and he will do so much for this world. I am so grateful to know such inspirational and deserving people so well. Friendship really makes a huge difference in personal self-esteem.
Nevertheless time and life shifts like the waves and buttery sands of Lanikai. Today is April Fool's Day, the first of APRIL. Weird things happen in a manner of months, days, and even hours. LIfe changes. Winds pull us together and break us apart. Humans are fascinating creatures. Sometimes we drift, but we have a will that can drive us to extreme summits, depths, and through astounding obstacles. There is a level of maturity that many people have a chance to reach, but I still have so many paths to travel before I even match the people I admire.
Yes, I am human. Anything IS possible however. Life is out there. All I can do now is enjoy it with my full throttle. Fear nothing.
Live!
Live!
Live!
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