Dream: Balance

The cup is empty: that is my energy now. But I have this identity and expectation of this royally perfect purple life. How unfortunate.

Today I accomplished NOTHING. I had one of the most meaningless days of my life although I spent some good time catching up with a few friends, relatively today was pitiful. I don't know how much worse it can get. Perhaps it has to do with my outlook, but overwhelmingly I contribute my struggles today, to merely get started on my homework, or participate in a civil conversation to my imbalance.

I have not slept. I have not eaten well. I have not been exercising. I feel like a broken record. I have not kept care of myself and I have not been consistently doing the things I need to do to maintain a balanced, less-stressed lifestyle. I am currently setting myself up for stress every day because of high expectations and a failure to follow through with my expectations on even the most basic level.

I dream of a life with balance. I life in which I can wake up without having every day feel like I am trapped in a miserable pit of stress. I have spent so much of my life trying to be someone who does all these things, but I dream of a time when everything I do is truly what I love. I have a life in my future in which I perhaps have occasionally stressful or frustrating days, but overall I have far more days where I can wake up with a jolly smile looking forward to the glory of each new day. I merely dream of a life in which the number of happy days exceeds the number of unhappy ones. Is this too much to ask?

"Broken Record" - Katy B