I woke up quite early this morning for my final, in fact twenty hours ago, so I should be exhausted, but I have quite a lot of energy. Nevertheless tomorrow I will be sleeping A LOT. My final left me uncomfortably uncertain, but it's when we head into the unknown that life becomes much more thrilling. I went to a coffee shop with an old friend, talked to some other friends, watched Berkeley's chemistry lectures online, practiced some chemistry, activated my stellar new phone, and finally enjoyed some time with friends later in the evening. It's rather late, so I haven't had much time to reflect, but today was a good day overall.
Tomorrow I get to study a lot, so no fun to look forward to.
Anyways, my dream tonight is about roommates. I really struggle with the idea of living with other people especially other guys. I've never had many guy friends, I mean seriously I can count them on one hand. I can tolerate other guys, as long as they aren't disgusting slobs, but I am really anxious for next year. I want to feel comfortable where I live, but I also want to be pushed out of my comfort zone a little, maybe make some new friends, and become a more tolerant and open-minded person. I haven't made the friends I expected this year because I didn't put the effort forth to be more social with other people around my floor. I was so overwhelmed with my studies, poor time management, and spent so much time with old high school friends that I missed most every opportunity to make new friends. Hopefully a cluster next year with interesting characters who are also tolerant and easygoing will make me less anxious, build new friendships, and pull me outside of the comfort zone I've hidden within for so long. I'm both excited and nervous, but I hope it'll all work out next year.
"Candles" - Hey Monday
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