Dream: Career

Today was busy like a beaver. I started with class and luckily did not have a quiz section for Japanese especially since I was exhausted and sleepy all day. This week is another failure in terms of getting sleep since tonight, the last chance I had to redeem my sleeping schedule has failed. Next week I'm clearing out my schedule so perhaps I will be better balanced; I need balance next week before the dreadful finals arrive the week after.

Back to today, I went to an advising session with my environmental science and resource management major, but discovered that the credit count sets me back a quite a bit and would require another course outside of my four-year-plan adding to my stress and frustration. One of my struggles is that I want to do a science major if my international studies major is my second major, but if I don't get into my international studies major I want to be an environmental studies major. I guess it doesn't matter too much, but I am really stressed by this predicament and I have no clue what to do. I will be speaking to another adviser tomorrow and another adviser on Friday so hopefully I will reach some clarity. I just hope to see all my college dreams come true...

The day continued with plenty of studying (one success story of today!) and other events. I went to a workshop on finding jobs and internships which introduced me to many useful resources and taught me of the realities of the working world. It made me feel like looking back at research, but I seem to be afraid of committment no matter where I turn. That's my ultimate struggle with my major. I don't want to commit to anything I don't truly love. I hate deciding my life because it makes me feel like I am the arbiter of my life when I understand that it truly doesn't work that way. Many other things control our lives besides ourselves and I don't like to push that too much, but I guess I inadvertently do since I have so many dreams.

After this workshop I went to a forum on education comparing different political parties and their student representatives opinions about the issues of education reform and funding. It was quite informative, but I spent most of my time doing economics homework rather than learning anything interesting new.

Now I am here after studying like crazy and doing all these different activities. This was quite a full day, but I am glad I was able to do so much. Tomorrow will be wonderful. I have two quizzes, but no lab so I am free to enjoy a lazy afternoon and catch up on work I have fallen behind on. I will prepare for dead week and restore myself.

Finally we get to the point of this blog post, my first dream post. I want to post one dream post each day to remind me of who I am and who I want to become. Today will be a career post since that is an area of my life that I have no clue about at all.

I dream of a career that enables me both variety and stability. I hope for a stable paycheck that affords me a comfortable, but not a luxurious life. I hope to support my family, but I also want to live a lifestyle that accepts a meager financial situation. I hope to travel either through generous vacation hours and pay or through interesting adventures in my job. My career has potential for growth in learning, while I help others grow as well. I have wonderful coworkers, some who challenge me, support me, befriend me, and maybe even love me. I use my leadership to make a real difference in my community and the world. I help people and the environment. I promote justice and equality. I am a trailblazer either discovering new ideas, leading new movements, or trying new methods. I am changing the world and making a positive impact. I do the grunt work necessary, stress builds on occasion, but I know that it is all worthwhile because I am doing something that truly helps the planet. My job stimulates my mind, challenging me to solve difficult problems and find real and plausible solutions. I do not have to worry too much about fundraising unless it is for a great cause and I most definitely do not spend extensive time on marketing. I am not a door-to-door salesman, a dentist, or a plastic surgeon. I do not work for a greedy corporation particularly an oil company and I have a job that fits within my moral values of meritocracy, passion, justice, equality, and open-mindedness. I feel comfortable being myself in my job, but I am still challenged to become a better person. My dream job fulfills my yearning for meaningfulness, purpose, and betterment of the world.

I better start searching for that job soon!

"Man on the Mountaintop" - Holly Brook/Skylar Grey