Rush

College. I am going crazy.

UW. Occidental. Berkeley? GWU. American.

5 choices. I love the first three, and I am visiting the other two soon, but I still have to wait one week until then. I am so lost.

UW is the school I know will be decent and practical. UW is affordable. It makes sense. I have friends there. The programs are great. Seattle is a pretty awesome city. And I know very assuredly that I will be okay at UW.

Oxy is my wildcard. I haven't even formally visited. The campus was nice. The academics are amazing. The courses offered are the most fascinating classes I have ever heard of. The limitations of its small size and moderately expensive cost are the only two drawbacks.

Berkeley has been my dream for years. It is the crazy choice. It is RIDICULOUSLY expensive. I'll need some luck or amazing effort to earn the money for Cal. But the academics are superior and the school has been my motivation for so long. It's where I want to be for the rest of my life.

The other two are so unknown. I don't even know if I will like DC. It's far away and the East Coast may just not fit for me.

So in the end I am lost as ever. I made a complex scoring system for my three well-researched choices. UW - 6.1; Oxy - 6.05; Cal - 6.03. At least they are better than my control, WSU - 3.02

I am so excited for college. All my choices are spectacular in many ways. But I am so afraid of huge things in each of them. The cost of Cal. The dissatisfaction of UW. The unknown of Oxy.

What is the best choice? What will I be happy with? I know I will struggle with one of these obstacles at every college, and most of my challenges will not be unique to one school. What they say is so true. It's not the college you attend, but what you do with your education and experience. Each of these schools will teach me so much about my life. But it is four years of life that I have been looking forward to for ages.

God send me an omen. Friends, listen and guide me. Conscience, find happiness with whatever happens.

"Vanilla Twilight" - Owl City