Thrill

I awoke groggily at 5:30, and quickly annihilated my alarm. Then I woke up from my Dad surprised that it was 6:00. My heart raced. I had to take a shower, eat, prep for school, make my lunch, and get there by 6:30. And I didn't. I didn't even get to where I needed to go until 6:45. But that's life. Then I set up for the assembly, barely awake. I continued to tread lightly through the day, unable to really comprehend it all. I couldn't appreciate the small wonderful moments. But I tried. I was happy today. I felt satisfied that we had a wonderful spirit chair. I was astounded by our class spirit. And we dominated the competition, culminating in the "check" made on butcher paper. But it was quite the euphoria. Engulfed in the spirit of the Senior section, surrounded by the excitement of my friends, discussing the hot topics, drinking Naked juice, and eating fatty food.

The life we live in can be appreciated. I feel exulted. I need to balance my time better, but I am approaching a greater balance. I am figuring out how to organize it all. And this offers me hope for the next few weeks when I need to crack down on college applications.

Life is crazy, but I don't want to ride the lazy river. I want to go on the crazy roller coasters because after all the trauma there is so much thrill and satisfaction. It may be more dangerous, and it may be harmful in the long-run, but if I just worry about living a long, yet mediocre existence, then I will probably be ironically hit by a truck. Death is scary. And i know I don't want to live in fear of it, so I must find happiness in all of life. Misery should not overcome me every waking moment of the day. And in the complex and frustrating times, I need to learn to handle it all.

To top it all off, I had an amazing week and it all culminates in a super dance tomorrow. I am so excited. All the drama is over. All the stress is receding. And tomorrow, the only stress, the only drama will be muffled in the excitement of homecoming. It's that beautiful time in fall when this dance becomes so marvelous. All the tension of asking that one girl. Hoping that it will all work out well. Learning to break from past mistakes. But most of all having a blast!!!

"Homecoming" - Hey Monday