Shalom

Peace is vital. With a calm mind and a calm spirit, suddenly everything becomes enlivened. If we can find the peace at the moments of tension and stress then we can suddenly think clearer, open our hearts, and be ourselves.

I try to listen to music or exercise, but the most effective way for me to calm down is to breathe. Breathing is so intrinsic to human being. Through breathing I can be free inside even when a battle surrounds me. Life may be a neverending battle, but from within I can decipher through all the crap thrown at me and find my voice, my heart, my life. It's hard to live without the influence of everyone around me, but I need to do it sometimes. I have to free myself from the distractions and the expectations. But they won't leave, so I have to only flee for that amount of time in which I can return. Unless I realize that return is not a worthy option.

Perhaps it makes no sense, but I am starting to really deal with my life step by step. For some reason I really do want to get things done now. I did my hw before 11 for the first time on a Sunday. And I had tons of hw, hung out with friends twice, and finished two more college apps. I guess effectiveness comes when you don't even sense it. I wasn't even that stressed this night!

I've done a ton of stupid things in my life. But sometimes we just need to forget about all of it. That's how we move onward. Take that suitcase like the African immigrants attacked in Italy, and move forward. Escape the harassment like the Togolese soccer players who were attacked in Angola. Quench the embers of resentment from the past as Yemen, yet another country threatens to be the next terror center and American bloodbath.

I want to fall in love. That sounds like a nice proposition. Thank God it's 2010.

"Trouble" - Coldplay