Warmth

Tingling through my spine, a chilly, yet warm wind penetrates my soul. It is the perfect temperature and humidity. Moist, not overwhelmingly hot, but definitely not frigid. Seemingly not any distinct weather at one in the morning, but it just feels perfect. I believe Spring is approaching: my favorite season.

Tonight was another awakening in this month of waking up.

The gratification of exiting sleep with a calm heart. Teaching Hebrew, making conversation without fear of judgment. Reach up toward the sky, celebrate the trees. Sh'ma yisrael, adonai echad, adonai eloheinu. Baruch shem k'vod malchuto l'olam va'ed. Listening to God, vocalizing Judaism.

Arrive in Vienna with a neutral countenance. Timid entrance, be the follower. Lead the waltz, dance across the floor, step on toes, embrace the music, open my heart to the rhythms. Watching the couples or the individuals. Observing the relationships, smiles, desperations, loves. Jitterbug: free. Crazy dance like the war is over. Smile at that friend who makes me a better person. Smile at that friend who is always there. Smile at the friend I have lost. Smile at the friend who makes my life whole. Bump.

I was accepted into university on Friday. I found out the girl I like was not so easy to reach. I hear of the hardships of friends trying to accomplish their dreams.

To the friend, the warrior: take the plunge into the abyss of fears

To the friend, the poet: Thank You.

To the friend, the musical dreamer who cares for the world: I apologize for not taking the time to understand you. I need to be there for you, and I need you to be there for me. But I am sorry for not making the effort to listen and comprehend. This week will be incredibly stressful and challenging, but have hope and take small steps to care for yourself. I will be here.

To the friend, the conductor: why do you avoid me? what has happened? tonight I realize that i need to reach out. But I miss your presence in my life.



"The Warmth" - Incubus